What's up guys?? I'm not gonna be long with this one..
This topic has been on my mind for a while. I can't rememeber exactly why or how I started thinking about this, but that's not the point. Tell me..What does it mean to talk, dress, or act white/black?? And what does it mean when someone says they only listen to white/black music?? Are we all not one people?? The ones I hate the most: the music and the talking black or white.
As you know, there are quite a few genres of music. To me, everyone has a set of genres that they prefer. I myself will listen to anything from Gospel, to Country, to Jazz (I could go on for days). I don't consider any of these to be "black" or "white" music. Music is music! Right? We gravitate toward different types, but in the end music is something beautiful that pretty much everyone loves.
And have you ever heard anyone say "He talks like he's black!" or "She talks/acts like she's white!" I mean either you speak standard English, or you don't! Right?
We all have our own way of speaking, dressig, and our own preferences of music. These things (among others) make us who we are. Talk back to me ya'll..What do you think..??
Blessings
27 November 2010
20 October 2010
He's Actin UP
Specktators, what's goin on?? I know it's been a while, and I know you all missed me Lol. I apologize for neglecting the blog, but I'm back now so let's get into it. This won't take too long...
So I've been single since the beginning of this year, and I enjoy this life quite a bit. It gives me the opportunity to meet new people and discover more of what I like and dislike when it comes to the opposite sex.
Anyway, I have this friend {who's name I choose not to reveal}. Real cool dude. He tells me he wants to go out on a "friendly date." Never had I EVER heard that term in my LIFE, but in my mind I was like "It's whatever." because I knew it wasn't anything serious...because HE'S not serious...Lol. So yea, he says he wants to see a movie, and I agree.
The plan was to go see RED, but I ended up seeing it with someone else by accident. I then try and reschedule, and this dude says that we're not going unless I'M paying for the both of us......HOLD UP!!......Are you serious?!?? LOL His rationale?: I'm fully capable of paying for two, plus he likes to "mix it up a bit" SMH ""It's so typical to take someone out on a date AND pay," he said. -_-
I look at it this way: if you ask ME to go somewhere, YOU should pay. Not because I'm incapable, a gold-digger, or anything of the sort. That's just what it is. I actually don't see anything wrong with the lady paying every now and then. But at the same time, if you say you wanna go somewhere with me, then you can't tell me that I'll be going alone if I'm not paying for the both of us...Am I crazy?? Old-fashioned?? Or do ya feel what I'm sayin...?? Guys and gals get back to me on this one......
PS - It was not my intention to put my friend on blast Lol..It's all love, so don't say anything crazy about him cuz only I can do that!! Lol
Blessings
So I've been single since the beginning of this year, and I enjoy this life quite a bit. It gives me the opportunity to meet new people and discover more of what I like and dislike when it comes to the opposite sex.
Anyway, I have this friend {who's name I choose not to reveal}. Real cool dude. He tells me he wants to go out on a "friendly date." Never had I EVER heard that term in my LIFE, but in my mind I was like "It's whatever." because I knew it wasn't anything serious...because HE'S not serious...Lol. So yea, he says he wants to see a movie, and I agree.
The plan was to go see RED, but I ended up seeing it with someone else by accident. I then try and reschedule, and this dude says that we're not going unless I'M paying for the both of us......HOLD UP!!......Are you serious?!?? LOL His rationale?: I'm fully capable of paying for two, plus he likes to "mix it up a bit" SMH ""It's so typical to take someone out on a date AND pay," he said. -_-
I look at it this way: if you ask ME to go somewhere, YOU should pay. Not because I'm incapable, a gold-digger, or anything of the sort. That's just what it is. I actually don't see anything wrong with the lady paying every now and then. But at the same time, if you say you wanna go somewhere with me, then you can't tell me that I'll be going alone if I'm not paying for the both of us...Am I crazy?? Old-fashioned?? Or do ya feel what I'm sayin...?? Guys and gals get back to me on this one......
PS - It was not my intention to put my friend on blast Lol..It's all love, so don't say anything crazy about him cuz only I can do that!! Lol
Blessings
08 July 2010
Get Glad!!
What's up everybody? I know it's been a while since I've written, but I have to make sure that each post is meaningful {to both you and me}. It's important to me that when you finish reading, you're able to take something away with you. Now that I've gotten that out of the way, I'd like to ask you a question...
Have you ever received news that left you without breath or thought for a couple seconds?....The type of news that completely steals your joy?....Well that's what happened to me on the 27th of June. It's been bothering me ever since, so today I decided to write about it before I explode. This was inspired by a friend who's very dear to me, but it's really for anyone who's ever felt like giving up on life..Here goes...
Have you ever received news that left you without breath or thought for a couple seconds?....The type of news that completely steals your joy?....Well that's what happened to me on the 27th of June. It's been bothering me ever since, so today I decided to write about it before I explode. This was inspired by a friend who's very dear to me, but it's really for anyone who's ever felt like giving up on life..Here goes...
There's A Light
You've been though things I cannot imagine
Now you feel like there's no point in going on
You wake up angry that you're still among the living
You think the only on you can count on is you {NOT true}
Even the ones who are supposed to be there to love and nurture you forever {your parents} are absent
For a while you began to move past it all
I watched you grow spiritually, but now you're fed up..wishing you could fill that void
You've tried ending it a few times, not realizing that there must be a reason why it hasn't worked
It's all too much to handle
The hold you're in gets deeper every day you're above ground
But you know what..?
It doesn't matter what things may look like
It doesn't matter who's there and who's not
It doesn't even matter how low you feel each day...
Why..?
Because there's Someone who spoke the world into existence
Surely He has a plan for your life regardless of your situation
So when darkness closes in, remember to let GOD be your light!
19 April 2010
He's MM MM Good!!!
Wah gwan Specktators?! Lol That's my nickname for ya..You can like it or love it Lol..So I'm finally back to share a little more me with you all....
Since Wednesday of last week, God's been saying the same things over and over to me. "Make time for ME!" was among some of those things. See on Wednesday, I went to prayer meeting here at my university and we discussesd {among other things}the fact that we often put so much before God, yet we say we know Him and/or want to strengthen our relationship with Him. How can you do this without spending time? The answer is you CAN'T. When you want to get to know that special someone, you make time for that person yes? For some reason when it comes to God, things are totally different. We make sure we get up early enough to do whatever we have to. We make time to talk on the phone to friends, go to work, class, or out on the town and somehow, God gets shoved to the last slot in our day {if He's made a part of our day at all}. Why isn't our Creator put above everything? He deserves it..It's the very least we could do. I know I definitely have to do better about communicating with Him and spending time reading His Word.
We also talked about how we tend to get off track when we're tempted in different ways. Of course this is normal, but we shouldn't stay on the wrong path. We spoke about being "dressed for battle"..Having on the full armor of God. This is one way to allow Him to transform our lives and live through us. It involves "dying to self" or submitting fully to Him..Living according to His will. Sometimes we're faced with temptations/trials and in those moments, we fail to realize that the enemy studies us long enough to know our weaknesses..what will make us fall. He's not stupid. He presents us with situations {after being authorized by God of course}, and we are left to choose to act in a way that is either godly, or ungodly. Geez I could go on and on and on.
I'll end with this: Let your thoughts be His thoughts. Don't live under the influence of your fears, temptations, etc. Remember that no matter how many trials or temptations the enemy throws at you, you have Someone bigger in your corner! Most importantly, stay centered on the Word of God. Without it, you're a dead man walking. {read Ephesians 6:10-18! It inspired me to right the majority of these words} I thank the Lord for reminders! I heard the same message Wednesday, Thursday, Friday, AND Saturday! He's SOO good! TOO good! He really shows Himself if you pursue him with your whole heart. So I'm doing my best to try and live right and encouraging you all to do the same. These are, afterall, the last days. He's coming soon whether we're ready or not. Live life for HIM because your life is not your own. Remember Him, and He'll remember you in the end!
"He traded the praise and worship of the angelic host for the mockery and jeers of an angry mob." Why not sacrifice for Him..??
Blessings
Since Wednesday of last week, God's been saying the same things over and over to me. "Make time for ME!" was among some of those things. See on Wednesday, I went to prayer meeting here at my university and we discussesd {among other things}the fact that we often put so much before God, yet we say we know Him and/or want to strengthen our relationship with Him. How can you do this without spending time? The answer is you CAN'T. When you want to get to know that special someone, you make time for that person yes? For some reason when it comes to God, things are totally different. We make sure we get up early enough to do whatever we have to. We make time to talk on the phone to friends, go to work, class, or out on the town and somehow, God gets shoved to the last slot in our day {if He's made a part of our day at all}. Why isn't our Creator put above everything? He deserves it..It's the very least we could do. I know I definitely have to do better about communicating with Him and spending time reading His Word.
We also talked about how we tend to get off track when we're tempted in different ways. Of course this is normal, but we shouldn't stay on the wrong path. We spoke about being "dressed for battle"..Having on the full armor of God. This is one way to allow Him to transform our lives and live through us. It involves "dying to self" or submitting fully to Him..Living according to His will. Sometimes we're faced with temptations/trials and in those moments, we fail to realize that the enemy studies us long enough to know our weaknesses..what will make us fall. He's not stupid. He presents us with situations {after being authorized by God of course}, and we are left to choose to act in a way that is either godly, or ungodly. Geez I could go on and on and on.
I'll end with this: Let your thoughts be His thoughts. Don't live under the influence of your fears, temptations, etc. Remember that no matter how many trials or temptations the enemy throws at you, you have Someone bigger in your corner! Most importantly, stay centered on the Word of God. Without it, you're a dead man walking. {read Ephesians 6:10-18! It inspired me to right the majority of these words} I thank the Lord for reminders! I heard the same message Wednesday, Thursday, Friday, AND Saturday! He's SOO good! TOO good! He really shows Himself if you pursue him with your whole heart. So I'm doing my best to try and live right and encouraging you all to do the same. These are, afterall, the last days. He's coming soon whether we're ready or not. Live life for HIM because your life is not your own. Remember Him, and He'll remember you in the end!
"He traded the praise and worship of the angelic host for the mockery and jeers of an angry mob." Why not sacrifice for Him..??
Blessings
16 March 2010
We Said Goodbye, But I Said Hello!
Hello to my new life..One without you
I have nothing against you at all
Even after the nonsense I put up with {you know what I mean}
Everything made me stronger..A better woman in myself..No, in Christ
Why didn't I follow my instincts? Smh us women..
I knew when we first met that you weren't right for me
I even said it to you..I used that word "never" and then....
I went along with it, hoping that one day things would magically change
Funny thing is I don't even believe in magic
I believed in us so much though..I don't even know why..
Maybe I was afraid to let go because I had already spent so much time
I had given so much..Maybe too much..
Time went by and the distance between us grew..Not only physically, but emotionally
Of course you didn't feel it..
I started feeling like we were just cool, but with a title that said we were more
I knew in my mind and heart that it needed to end
I was settling
Not trying to dog you at all..I'm sure you'll be perfect for someone else..
Someone made it even easier for me to let go
My eye opener
My eye opener came along and showed me what I deserve
We got so close in such a short amount of time..It's crazy {that's another blog..maybe..whew!}
I realized that I wasn't getting what I needed..What I should have..
I wasn't happy and my eye opener made it so easy for me to be
So now it's just me..HAPPY! On my own
I woke up the day after we deaded it feeling so full and so complete!
I think that was the sunniest day I've ever seen
I felt like God was saying "If you'd just listen to ME, you could feel this way always!"
I had been ignoring him for so long, but of course he was there waiting for me {again}..Waiting for when I was ready to stop doing things my way
I'm not even mad that it's over
Not sad either
A couple people found out and told me how sorry they were to hear the news
I still don't understand why because I'm not sorry
Things change..People change..And life goes on..
We Said Goodbye, But I said Hello!
Hello to my new life..One without you
I have nothing against you at all
Even after the nonsense I put up with {you know what I mean}
Everything made me stronger..A better woman in myself..No, in Christ
Why didn't I follow my instincts? Smh us women..
I knew when we first met that you weren't right for me
I even said it to you..I used that word "never" and then....
I went along with it, hoping that one day things would magically change
Funny thing is I don't even believe in magic
I believed in us so much though..I don't even know why..
Maybe I was afraid to let go because I had already spent so much time
I had given so much..Maybe too much..
Time went by and the distance between us grew..Not only physically, but emotionally
Of course you didn't feel it..
I started feeling like we were just cool, but with a title that said we were more
I knew in my mind and heart that it needed to end
I was settling
Not trying to dog you at all..I'm sure you'll be perfect for someone else..
Someone made it even easier for me to let go
My eye opener
My eye opener came along and showed me what I deserve
We got so close in such a short amount of time..It's crazy {that's another blog..maybe..whew!}
I realized that I wasn't getting what I needed..What I should have..
I wasn't happy and my eye opener made it so easy for me to be
So now it's just me..HAPPY! On my own
I woke up the day after we deaded it feeling so full and so complete!
I think that was the sunniest day I've ever seen
I felt like God was saying "If you'd just listen to ME, you could feel this way always!"
I had been ignoring him for so long, but of course he was there waiting for me {again}..Waiting for when I was ready to stop doing things my way
I'm not even mad that it's over
Not sad either
A couple people found out and told me how sorry they were to hear the news
I still don't understand why because I'm not sorry
Things change..People change..And life goes on..
We Said Goodbye, But I said Hello!
Hello to my new life..One without you
15 March 2010
...but I LOVEE himm!
What's up guys?? So I've been thinking of things to write since I created the blog. Every time I was inspired to write, I'd get distracted with school and/or assignments, work and other things and my thought(s) would be lost. I figured I should sign in quickly and let this out before it was lost like the other posts. Now hear me out....
So about a week ago, I was dubbed "Ms. Stewart the Therapist" against my will, but it's cool. See there's this girl I go to school with who is going through a really rough time. Now I have no issue {whatsoever} listening to people and giving advice if I'm able to, but I have my own problems you know? You may see that as a selfish statement, but I'm being real. I just hate that people always seem to need me when I need to vent myself. Anyway, I'm getting off track.
So this girl randomly begins telling me about her boyfriend and how he's been treating her. She tells me how they've been together for quite some time now, and that they've argued from the beginning. She complains about how unhappy she is with the relationship and then she begins sharing a story about a fight they'd recently had. Now when she said fight, I assumed she meant they got into another one of their arguments, but this chick actually meant FIGHT! Lol {I laugh because it's shocking, not because it's funny} She tells me that her boyfriend had shoved her and bit her =O Like a freakin animal right?!?? Then she says, "...but God's working it out."......HOLD UP!!......Are you serious?!??
Honestly, I was irritated in the beginning because I barely know this girl. Now
I can say that I thank God for placing her in my path because it's giving me the chance to share with her the God that I know, and it's giving me the chance to help her put the pieces back together. Being there for her is also teaching me to be more selfless. That's something that I definitely need work on. I'll continue to be a listening ear/helping hand the best that I know how. Hopefully she'll become a lot more confident in herself and in God. So I guess what I wanna know is......
Why is it so hard for some ladies to grasp the fact that they should be treated as queens? Why do some of them settle because they honestly believe that it's the best they can do? Why do some put up with CRAP and hope that one day they'll wake up and everything will be the way they want it to be..the way it should be? Let me know what you think..Guys and gals, doesn't matter......
Blessings
So about a week ago, I was dubbed "Ms. Stewart the Therapist" against my will, but it's cool. See there's this girl I go to school with who is going through a really rough time. Now I have no issue {whatsoever} listening to people and giving advice if I'm able to, but I have my own problems you know? You may see that as a selfish statement, but I'm being real. I just hate that people always seem to need me when I need to vent myself. Anyway, I'm getting off track.
So this girl randomly begins telling me about her boyfriend and how he's been treating her. She tells me how they've been together for quite some time now, and that they've argued from the beginning. She complains about how unhappy she is with the relationship and then she begins sharing a story about a fight they'd recently had. Now when she said fight, I assumed she meant they got into another one of their arguments, but this chick actually meant FIGHT! Lol {I laugh because it's shocking, not because it's funny} She tells me that her boyfriend had shoved her and bit her =O Like a freakin animal right?!?? Then she says, "...but God's working it out."......HOLD UP!!......Are you serious?!??
Honestly, I was irritated in the beginning because I barely know this girl. Now
I can say that I thank God for placing her in my path because it's giving me the chance to share with her the God that I know, and it's giving me the chance to help her put the pieces back together. Being there for her is also teaching me to be more selfless. That's something that I definitely need work on. I'll continue to be a listening ear/helping hand the best that I know how. Hopefully she'll become a lot more confident in herself and in God. So I guess what I wanna know is......
Why is it so hard for some ladies to grasp the fact that they should be treated as queens? Why do some of them settle because they honestly believe that it's the best they can do? Why do some put up with CRAP and hope that one day they'll wake up and everything will be the way they want it to be..the way it should be? Let me know what you think..Guys and gals, doesn't matter......
Blessings
09 March 2010
The Meanin Behind The Name
Hey World! So I'm new to this whole blog thing. I love to free write, but I've never shared any of what I've written..Well maybe once....Anyway, lately I've been feeling the urge to create a blog because I've had so much on my mind. I can't wait to get started! Hopefully I'll get some followers soon! :o/ Lol..
So I decided to use this first post to share the meaning behind the name "Specks"...See I'm really shy and laid back. I allow people to get to know me slowly. The more time you spend communicating with me in some way, the more you learn {because the more I reveal}..I think that's everyone though. I thought the name "Specks" would be perfect because to me, each blog post, or "speck", is my way of sharing a tiny bit of my thoughts with you readers. You may say "Well duhh, Jemeka!" but this is soo huge to me! Soo huge! This is me giving you readers a look into my feelings, my head, my heart, my L-I-F-E..WHEW! Each post will be a piece of me I guess. I hope you all enjoy and keep up with me..Maybe I'll come back later and write some more....
Blessings
So I decided to use this first post to share the meaning behind the name "Specks"...See I'm really shy and laid back. I allow people to get to know me slowly. The more time you spend communicating with me in some way, the more you learn {because the more I reveal}..I think that's everyone though. I thought the name "Specks" would be perfect because to me, each blog post, or "speck", is my way of sharing a tiny bit of my thoughts with you readers. You may say "Well duhh, Jemeka!" but this is soo huge to me! Soo huge! This is me giving you readers a look into my feelings, my head, my heart, my L-I-F-E..WHEW! Each post will be a piece of me I guess. I hope you all enjoy and keep up with me..Maybe I'll come back later and write some more....
Blessings
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